melepaskan beliau pergi :/

In the name of Allah, the Most Graceful and Merciful J

It has been 3.20 am?! Like seriously? Yes , it is J for today, I did too many things kah? Yes, it is! But, hati tak tenang.. why kah?

Petang tadi my beloved mum gimme a call,

Aku: umi, pagi tdi angah send off ila kat klia. Ila fly Australia hari ni. Angah pergi dgn wardah.

Bla…bla…bla..

Umi: Oh, anak cik iza pon dah fly. Selasa hari tu. (mak cik iza tuh, mak cik jahit kain baju kami kat pekan johol yang indah dan permai )

Aku: Oh, …

Umi: Angah jangan putua asa tao. Umi tahu angah kat mana. Umi yakin dengan angah. Umi sentiasa doakan angah. Angah mesti jadi kuat…angah? Angah?

Aku: *diam* without any respond. *tears are rolling down macam air terjun lata kijang*

Umi: Angah? Telefon sape yang rosak ni? Umi? ke angah?

Aku: Ye, ye umi J m..angah akt sini. Telefon umi kot ==”

Umi: Angah jangan nangis.!

Aku: M… ye …ye umi….*tersedu-sedu*

Aku and umi: bla..bla..bla..until the end of perbualan

From a baby to a teenage girl, I was used to having my umi beside to protect and take care of me. From small to big things, I always called my umi to solve it. I, her daughter, who live in her love, never know how hard she did to supply for my life.

I even didn't know how to say thank you when my umi gave me something and I have never say sorry to her when I did a mistake. I was ever a bad child. I didn't know how many times I make her sad. I argued with her or was upset to her just because small things.

Did you ever do anything that makes the people who always love you feel disappointed in you? I did. In my life, I did many things wrong but thing always made me regretful so much was to let my parents down.

While the time I was a senior, my umi was always the person who was beside to take care of me, support me. She gave me many advices to help me get over my hardship. "Sweetheart, you don't know how much I love you. Being parents, they all want their children happy and succeeded. When you have a child, you will understand umi's heart" Indeed, I haven't understood how great and deep my umi's love was for me.

Aku ada satu kisah yang memilukan masa sekolah dulu. Until now, when I remember, I see I was so selfish.

That time, I just thought about myself. I didn't care about my parents' feelings, especially my umi who was always beside me. Her sadness and disappointment appeared on her eyes, I could see it. Her face seemed have more wrinkles, and she was older. Her beautiful and bright face disappeared, instead an austere face. She said to me," Honey, I know now you are very sad but that's just a first challenge in your life which you

have to get over. The most important thing is you can learn from it and never repeat it again. Every time you fail down, you will be more mature and stronger. You can't just stay in your room and cried all day. Please don't pressurize me and your father. You don't know how much we worry about you!" I would not forget what my umi's words that day. I knew that no matter what I did, I was still her daughter. When I was so down in mouth, she was always the one who gives me a warm shoulder to lean on.

Sometimes, I miss my umi so much, I wish I could have her beside to talk to me and hug me in her arms. I don't know when I have a child I can do well as my umi did for me or not, but I will never stop trying because of her love for me. She is always my most precise present I have in

MY LIFE

.

If love is sweet as a flower, then my umi is that sweet flower of love." After all I was a big sister but I’m still

a baby girl for my mum.

The fact is, one day, im going to let her go..

Let her go..to let umi get her rest for the life hereafter. the place she belongs to..

you're everything I know, It's so hard to let you go
I'm not tryin' to break your heart

I dunno whether I had prepared for the day or not…umi, its so hard to let you go.:(

Umi, angah sayang umi !!! there is no one can replace you J

Dah tak mampu nak sambung… Later, I’ll continue. Lets see first how its goin to be Jsalam. Take care peeps.xoxo

her wise words :')

perpisahan itu hakikatnya mengujii keteguhan hati...
2 org yg b'temu dan bpisah kerana ALLAH itu sebenarnya tak pernah sekalipun berpisah. Hati kalian dah terikat dgn kasih syg, bakti, budi... tersimpul dgn tanggungjwb, amanah Ingatlah makna ukhuwwah, ingatlah semula makna persahabatan

jasad terpisah, hati kan tetap berpaut... kan ?

Ya ALLAH, ajarkanlah Raudhah Ramlan ibrah perpisahan ini.

gud nite. take care always, sweetheart. saya sayang awak - LIA'S

saya sayang awak jugak shazlia :’) - MINE

Later, we talk about this ADORABLE young lady < --- shazlia razali <3 !

Ya Allah, please take a really good care of her :')

6.05 pm. , 18th feb '12

ila SAFELY arrived at Queensland

'Raudhah ! Ila da msg mel, baru jap, alhamdulillah, dia da slmt smp, dear, text her now !! '

05 : 54 :00 pm - mel's

' Sweethearttttt ! awak da sampai ? '

06 : 07 : 00 pm - raudhah's

' Awak!. da alhamdulillah! =) awk kt ne? maktab da ? '

05 : 59 : 56 pm - ila's

- the end -

ila, why raudhah x boleh dengar nama awak ya ? arghhhhhh :'( ! da sayang, da lama sampai .

saya nak jalan jauh lagi :')

if you can't have the best of what you want, learn to make the best of what you have :')

go raudhah ! go awak ! go everyone ! :')

untuk ila, i miss you :'( !

dear sweetheart - ainatul asyila jamil <3 !

Sahabat… raudhah sendiri tak tahu nak ceritakan apa.

But, bila dapat tahu ila nak fly,seriously, tak tipu ni… nak nangis kuat-kuat. Nak nangis laju-laju. Faham tak?Faham ? To be honest jugak, tak ramai pon yang raudhah keep in touch after graduate form 5. Just a few of them. But, I did text, pernah skype once dengan ila. Ila, herfull name is, nor ainatul asyila binti jamil. Kan ila? Kan? Orangnya kecik. Suara dia kuatsangat-sangat. Bukan kuat kot, but sangat nyaring :') . Kalau ila cakap, mesti satu kelas dengar. :D pernah satu sekali call ila dalambas, kawan kat sebelah boleh dengar ila cakap apa :') never mind ! And ila sangat suka kucing. Mana-mana ila pergi,mesti ila lukis kucing.

We do tidur satu bantal, we do tidur satu katil, we do share makanan yangbeli kat kantin. We do share kerusi dalam kelas sama-sama. We do menangis kateach other. We do ketawa pasal benda-bend

a yang kadang-kadang annoyed. Banyak sangat benda “we do” . to writea list, or mention things one after the other. Banyakkkk san

gattttt. marah junior sama-sama. haha.itu masa kecik-kecik okayh.

And sekarang….

InsyAllah she will be flying to Aussie thisFebruary to pursue her tertiary education in Veterinary Science at Universityof Queensland. #copyayatbelogsheila'sstory# .

" ila, i've never been there, macam jauh jek. macam

mana if raudhah nak meet ila? macam mana if

raudhah nak nangis kat bahu ila ? "

today is 17^thFeb ’12 and her flight is ? it’s on 18^th Feb ‘12. 0930. ESOK..! lest. pandaikan ainatul ?!sebenarnya, ramai je kawan raudhah yang dah fly. Tapi, bila sampai turn ila… :’( !nak nangis kot. Kenapa ya ila? Ce jawab ila..!

itulah kawan raudhah. Untuk ainatul, ni first post blog raudhah. And raudhah dedicate untuk ainatul. We never met after habis sekolah dulu. Masing-masing haluan masing-masing. =="

ini old time kami, we got 14 in our class. it was form five if im not mistaken. ainatul is the one who were wearing the hijau kurung and tudung in the middle. the peace hand :')

Buat ainatul,

Raudhah sayang awak..! kalau raudhah diberi peluang untuk dapatkan DORAEMON, raudhah nak mintak DORAEMON tu buat raudhah masuk form one semula. Muahaha ! tp, it is something cannot happen or be done. Hanya ALLAH yangberhak mengatur alam ini. Biarlah, semua kenangan itu. Raudhah simpan rapat-rapat dalam hati. Dalam rindu. Dalam kenangan. Semoga kenangan itu berisatu kekuatan untuk raudhah teruskan kehidupan raudhah kat sini. Amin Ya Allah,amiin ya rabb J

Ainatul, awak mesti janji dengan raudhah.

• Jangan lupa raudhah !
• Jangan selalu nangis !
• Be good and stay cool and strong !
• Selalu buzz raudhah anywhere. Skype or fb !
• BANYAK SANGAT NAK TULIS. Tapi, tak nak tulis dekat sini. Nanti nak tulis apa lagi kalau semua da beritahu. Even vlogger pon kena ada private matter. < --- ecece :D

Ainatul…

Ainatul suka if orang panggil dia instead of ila. Jadi,panggil ila, ainatul … kita berdua nak jalan jauh lagi kan. Ada masa, kita berdua terjatuh. Awak tolong raudhah bangun.awak pegang tangan raudhah kuat-kuat, please ila, jangan lepaskan ya :') !

Awak, doakan raudhah kat sini. Terima kasih untuk all the conversation.Conversation should be pleasant without scurrility, witty withoutaffectation, free without indecency,learned without conceitedness, novel without falsehood. We do, awak. !

Awak doakanraudhah sentiasa kuat. Awak,,, Sob.sob. < ---djangannangisjangannangis#

· Semoga Allahpelihara iman awak

· Semoga Allahsentiasa jaga awak

· Semoga Allahpermudahkan segala urusan awak di sana

· Semoga Allahberi kesihatan yang terbaik untuk awak di sana

· Semoga Allahberkati kehidupan awak

· Semoga Allahberi kehidupan awak di dunia dan di akhirat

· Semoga Allahsampaikan salam rindu raudhah pada awak. < --- hamboihamboi# < --- fakelaugh

class wall < --- 4 al-razi :')

Sekian, your friendship is a beautiful gift, that I will treasurein my heart forever. Thank you for being a great friend.

Utusan untuk NOR AINATUL ASYILA BINTI JAMIL. Dari saya, RAUDHAH BINTI RAMLAN

~ REGARDS ~ with millions buckets of love and hugs :’)

p/s .. ainatul suka warna biru, that's why i used blue color to bold up her name.