melepaskan beliau pergi :/

In the name of Allah, the Most Graceful and Merciful J

It has been 3.20 am?! Like seriously? Yes , it is J for today, I did too many things kah? Yes, it is! But, hati tak tenang.. why kah?

Petang tadi my beloved mum gimme a call,

Aku: umi, pagi tdi angah send off ila kat klia. Ila fly Australia hari ni. Angah pergi dgn wardah.

Bla…bla…bla..

Umi: Oh, anak cik iza pon dah fly. Selasa hari tu. (mak cik iza tuh, mak cik jahit kain baju kami kat pekan johol yang indah dan permai )

Aku: Oh, …

Umi: Angah jangan putua asa tao. Umi tahu angah kat mana. Umi yakin dengan angah. Umi sentiasa doakan angah. Angah mesti jadi kuat…angah? Angah?

Aku: *diam* without any respond. *tears are rolling down macam air terjun lata kijang*

Umi: Angah? Telefon sape yang rosak ni? Umi? ke angah?

Aku: Ye, ye umi J m..angah akt sini. Telefon umi kot ==”

Umi: Angah jangan nangis.!

Aku: M… ye …ye umi….*tersedu-sedu*

Aku and umi: bla..bla..bla..until the end of perbualan

From a baby to a teenage girl, I was used to having my umi beside to protect and take care of me. From small to big things, I always called my umi to solve it. I, her daughter, who live in her love, never know how hard she did to supply for my life.

I even didn't know how to say thank you when my umi gave me something and I have never say sorry to her when I did a mistake. I was ever a bad child. I didn't know how many times I make her sad. I argued with her or was upset to her just because small things.

Did you ever do anything that makes the people who always love you feel disappointed in you? I did. In my life, I did many things wrong but thing always made me regretful so much was to let my parents down.

While the time I was a senior, my umi was always the person who was beside to take care of me, support me. She gave me many advices to help me get over my hardship. "Sweetheart, you don't know how much I love you. Being parents, they all want their children happy and succeeded. When you have a child, you will understand umi's heart" Indeed, I haven't understood how great and deep my umi's love was for me.

Aku ada satu kisah yang memilukan masa sekolah dulu. Until now, when I remember, I see I was so selfish.

That time, I just thought about myself. I didn't care about my parents' feelings, especially my umi who was always beside me. Her sadness and disappointment appeared on her eyes, I could see it. Her face seemed have more wrinkles, and she was older. Her beautiful and bright face disappeared, instead an austere face. She said to me," Honey, I know now you are very sad but that's just a first challenge in your life which you

have to get over. The most important thing is you can learn from it and never repeat it again. Every time you fail down, you will be more mature and stronger. You can't just stay in your room and cried all day. Please don't pressurize me and your father. You don't know how much we worry about you!" I would not forget what my umi's words that day. I knew that no matter what I did, I was still her daughter. When I was so down in mouth, she was always the one who gives me a warm shoulder to lean on.

Sometimes, I miss my umi so much, I wish I could have her beside to talk to me and hug me in her arms. I don't know when I have a child I can do well as my umi did for me or not, but I will never stop trying because of her love for me. She is always my most precise present I have in

MY LIFE

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If love is sweet as a flower, then my umi is that sweet flower of love." After all I was a big sister but I’m still

a baby girl for my mum.

The fact is, one day, im going to let her go..

Let her go..to let umi get her rest for the life hereafter. the place she belongs to..

you're everything I know, It's so hard to let you go
I'm not tryin' to break your heart

I dunno whether I had prepared for the day or not…umi, its so hard to let you go.:(

Umi, angah sayang umi !!! there is no one can replace you J

Dah tak mampu nak sambung… Later, I’ll continue. Lets see first how its goin to be Jsalam. Take care peeps.xoxo